Why do I always end up feeling this way? No matter how hard I make myself believe, I still end up defeated:(

I dont want to be with you for hundred years….

‘cuz that ain’t enough

I want to be with you for hundred and hundred and more hundreds of years [insertforeverhundredshere]

Happy Birthday Boss

Thank you for everything!!!Me loves you suuuuperrrr:))….and I’m sorry^n^

Denise Pajo a.k.a Yuehara

Yung feeling ng first time!

Yeh, just a couple of hours ago i found myself struggling yet having fun under the heavy rain, with matching kulog and kidlat. Rough road, whitefield, slimmy and muddy road, carabao’s or I dont know who else’s pooop everywhere…YEah, yeah! I met all these things kanina lang. But did I care? Nope, getting grossed out was definitely out of my mind. I dont know how that happened since I’m the kind of person who freaks out with slimmy and anything that is unpleasant, you know what I mean right? Who cares if I stuck myself under the deep mud or is it really a mud or a huge poop? Who cares if I blindly soak my hands under the water with God knows what’s under it? Who cares if I stumble or dump my ass on those rocky roads? Who the hell cares? Well I dont, why? Because it was FUNNN:)

Basically, we went there to catch Abal-abal/Salagubang/Philippine beetle or whatever you call it for what? For food, which will serve as their pulutan (finger food). I actually didnt know that they came from underground. I kept thinking how on earth are we going to catch those tiny creatures when its almost raining? Then I remember what Boss’s had said, they come out from the ground when rain hits the ground or better when before the rain sets. 

And then, when I saw tiny things flying everywhere I almost panic, why? Because I was afraid, hell yeah I was. You know, like in a movie where gazillion of bees invade a town and they try to cloth each human being they come across with? Yes, those were the thoughts. Thank God it didn’t turned out that way, I might not get myself home if that happens. 

As Boss said, adventure…Its more fun in…haha:)

Sh*t lungsss, di ko na yata afford^~^

Familiar? Yeah, this is where the movie My big Love was shoot, well just some part of it - where Tony and Sam were walking and like that. Oh well, I just fell in love with the place.

and of course, this set will not be complete without me! teehee:))

Why can’t you see me in a special way? Why cant you make me feel that I’m special? Why do I need to force things just to be special for you? Why is it so damn hard to be thay way in your eyes? Why do I keep on effin forcing things?